I thought that I would start by sharing a little about myself. I am 57 years young and considering what the next stage in my life will be. I am currently disabled but am trying my best to overcome that which had previously overcome me. The medical assistance that is available is lacking at best so I am trying to learn how to maneuver within the system and receive all of the care that is possible. The next paragraph concerns a serious glitch in my attempt to receive proper care, a big glitch!
I was actually intentionally tortured through burning by a Dr. named Steven J. Blatchford on the 8th of October in Tucson while undergoing an ineffective and outdated, as it turned out, procedure to enlarge the airways in my nose. He used RF(radio frequency) to not only burn me in an area that had not been numbed but inflicted a simply torturous experience with that machine! The RF produced a lightning bolt like phenomenon within my nostril that lasted 20 to 40 seconds and left a second degree burn, as far as I can tell. This was done by Dr. Steven J. Blatchford of Tucson who is one of the managing partners of Valley ENT PC (ear, nose and throat) corporation which operates in the greater Phoenix and Tucson areas. The headquarters are in Scottsdale, AZ. and their vice president in charge of making these things quietly become a non event without any compensation or reprimand, is Dr. Dan Hurley. I have written in other posts additional facts that you can read.
I have spent my adult life struggling to manage all of the pain and suffering that arose for a variety of reasons in my life from childhood and am making progress. This outlet called blogging is also helpful because I have a great desire to share my very unusual, even “Supernatural” life experiences and decades of study with the hope of helping other people to learn to manage as well as correct their path in life spiritually as well as mentally, emotionally and help them to find the direction that we all truly need even though we may not be aware of those needs.
My life has been a great struggle that has even driven me to not only consider suicide but attempt it as well!!! I intend to SHARE AS MUCH AS I CAN WITHOUT revealing too much. This happened when I was about 22 years old, in 1976. I was taking anti-depressants as I recall and nothing seemed to work to alleviate my suffering and one day I saw my ex-wife who was responsible for all of this and that was a good part of the trigger that prompted me to swallow a couple of full bottles of strong pills and then went to sleep in my car outside of my mother’s house. You see, my mother played a major part in my decision to end it all at her house because she played a major role in my destruction, mentally emotionally as well as psychologically in conjunction with my ex-wife . It was similar to a tag team of hate!
For those of you who might be suffering difficulty, I must caution you to absolutely forget any ideas of harming yourself or anyone else! It is not worth the pain and sorrow that you will actually, not only cause yourself when you wake up in Hell but it will also not do anything to get even with those who have caused you all of the pain and suffering that you are experiencing! You will be the big loser, not them! Suicide is NEVER a Good choice even when you think that there is no other choice available! Give it some time and even ask GOD to help you through this difficult period of time! God is the only answer but you must be patient because God works on His own timetable not ours. These things eventually work themselves out if you will trust God! Give it some time! I have suffered most of my life and have learned that suffering is something that those who belong to Christ, quite often must endure and as for those who are not “Born Anew”, you also often suffer as well. This is a cursed world and evil is present everywhere.
If you have not even considered what happens when your life ends then I urge you to consider it now! If you have read any of my posts in this or other blogs of mine that discuss my experiences with the supernatural world then I invite you to do so, soon. We do not know the length of our lives and only God does! We are not guaranteed a long life and all you need to do is look around and you will notice that death is everywhere. I have been allowed by the Spirit of God, who is the “Holy Spirit”, to see the supernatural world from time to time and learn to recognize that evil is all around me, in various forms. The LORD God through His Spirit has given to me the spiritual gift called “Discerning of Spirits” or “Spiritual Discernment”. It was not until later in life that I came to the realization of why I was seeing and experiencing all that I had. It was to help to prepare me for that which was to happen later in life. I now reflect back and see with hindsight that all of the pain, suffering and all kinds of struggles has had a purpose, to strengthen me and generally to prepare me for something more important. I hope that you will seek to have a personal relationship with God through His Son Jesus through “Faith” for He is the only possible source of true peace, joy and eternal salvation, forgiveness for our many sins. Even YOU can be saved, no matter what you have done, because Jesus paid the penalty that had to be paid for anyone to enter into the presence of a “Holy GOD” in Heaven which is GOD’s Heaven! Hell was created for Satan and his demons, but all who reject God’s Son will have chosen by default to spend all of eternity in Hell!