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The first year was the most exciting and perhaps one of the most frustrating years of the 10 years of life in the National Forest. Despite the miraculous events that led me up there and the wonderful and miraculous events that happened after my arrival, the first year was filled with my faithful searching for the purpose for me being up there. I worked myself harder than any Earthly employer could ever motivate me to work especially since I was plagued with pain and suffering and not just physical. Toward the end of the first year I had searched for everything that I could think of and was convinced that there was no gold in the stream bed so placer mining was eliminated at least for gold and silver. The hard dry dirt on the hill sides was incredibly difficult to dig in and I was worn out. I pleaded for The Lord to direct me and he finally did in a very unexpected way. The weather was warm one cloudless afternoon. I had been resting and reading the Bible and at about 5pm I stopped and decided to walk out of my trailer and when I did and looked up I saw another “Sign”. “Within the canyon”, I saw above me a cloud that was in the shape of the right hand of “God”. Again, this was a cloudless day. I also had these little sparkles flying around in front of my eyes. I had no idea what the sparkles represented but I suspect that it is the stuff that “Angels” are made of. While I was staring at this hand shaped cloud another small cloud came out of nowhere and quickly struck the hand at the wrist. This hand was pointing across the canyon from my camp area at a particular outcrop of ground. After some serious thought I decided that It meant that I was to impact or ‘Dig” where the “hand” was pointing so I did just that. I had previously learned that I was to look for soft areas that for one reason were easier to dig in and were more likely to be mineralized ground. I started digging along a “Fault Line” as it turned out which is a good starting point. I eventually dug about 25 feet into the side of the canyon. It took a few years of off and on digging before the soft and fractured dirt and rock became too hard to tunnel into by hand with a pick and shovel and hammer and chisel. Over time, the outer fractured rock shifts downward etc. so it was necessary to go in as far as I could to determine the “Strike” or direction of the fault and mineralized zone. After I made that determination, I followed the strike direction up the side of the canyon and found a rich out crop of “Silver”. Unfortunately the silver is in a form that has to be “Smelted” so I can not just fill up buckets and go and sell it. I have to wait until I can mine it on a larger scale and ship it to a smelter.

There were other unusual sightings and happenings that are  more difficult to describe. During the first year, I had some “Dreams” that were very incredible and are still yet to be unveiled. One of these dreams leads me to believe that the “Double Signs and Wonders” part of the original “Prophetic Vision” is still yet to be revealed. The “Double” aspect reminds me of Elisha’s request that He would be given a double portion of the “Spirit” that Elijah had been given by “The Lord”. The most incredible dream had me standing at the edge of my camp at night. It was about 15 to 20 feet from that point down to the stream bed. I was standing and watching a “blue column of energy” that was horizontal to and just above the stream bed. This blue column of energy was vaporizing a tunnel through the bedrock that is below the camp area where I was standing. I had previously found a mineralized vein structure on the opposite side of the canyon from my other silver discovery. This vein structure did not have much value at the surface. After this dream I realized that the vaporized tunnel in my dream was heading directly toward this other mineralized vein structure which gives me hope that it has rich ore at a deeper level. Another very unusual dream had me in a factory setting where I had just been hired. My supervisor or employer and I were walking down a hallway toward a work area when I was given my job description. I was told that I was to “Talk and Make Circumference”. This also gave me much to consider. I assume the “Talk” means that I am to share what The Lord is doing in my life and the “Make Circumference” means that I am to keep going around in “circles” until I am directed to do something different and I am still waiting!

My life continued with the normal hardships associated with such a commitment until one day, out of frustration I asked the Lord “Where is It”? Then I again heard the “Still Small voice of The Lord” say: “You Have Already Found It”! I had searched for something that I could sell and provide at least a small income to sustain myself and up until that point , I still had not found what I had been looking for, an income so when I heard The Lord say this a great anger welled up inside me because if I had already found that which The Lord wanted me to find, It did not include something that I could “Sell”. Eight and a half years of great hardship had passed without that which I could truly call “Success”. It was a terrible disappointment so I asked the Lord: what do you mean by “You have already found it”? I was very angry when I asked this and He didn’t  answer. This left me with a great dilemma. What do I do now? Since the original “Leading” was for “Gold and Silver” and I had only found “Silver” I started looking for gold in another area that I had previously found a small amount of this elusive metal. I had also applied for Social Security with the help of “Legal Aid” knowing that I needed a regular income. I had gone for many years without government help but after my weight dropped to a point that I had not sustained since I was a teenager, it was now unavoidable. Because of my faith and trust in God I was not willing to steal or commit other dishonest acts.

I found a well near the area where I had previously found a little gold so I started working on building a gasoline powered pump. A man in town had his own machine shop and was willing to help me convert an old electric well pump into a gasoline powered one. I eventually scavenged an old engine that was repairable and had the pump that I needed. The most difficult part of extracting gold in desert regions is the necessity of and difficulty finding water to process the dirt and extract the gold. I also needed water for everyday uses as well. It was in this area that I spent the majority of the remaining time before finally being accepted into the Social Security program known as “SSI” which is the smallest income that Social Security pays out! I found out later that it is necessary to file for “Disability” within 7 years from the time that you become “disabled” to qualify for “SSDI” which pays much more than “SSI”. I simply waited too long! The whole process including appeals takes a couple of years to finally get approved and get your first check. I worked in that area processing small amounts of gold until the back-breaking work that is required was just too much while receiving too little for my efforts! My best day provided about $10. of gold and then it would be necessary to be flat on my back for days to recover from the damage to myself that it caused. Continue reading

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When I chose to make such an adventurous decision it was solely based on my belief that God was directing the events of my life, fully. All that was required of me was to be faithful to the leading of The Holy Spirit. I had saved about $500 prior to my life changing decision to move into the National Forest and start looking for mineral deposits. I did not do any research other than that which I described previously which was to gather and study some topographical maps. I had no experience to speak of. I had never even learned to pan for gold. I basically didn’t even know what I was looking for. All that I knew is that it had something to do with “silver and gold”. I found out that there was an assay office in Tucson so every vein structure that I found, I took fairly large samples of them all and started making trips to the assay office and wasted all the money that I had saved on worthless rock samples! Well I suppose it wasn’t a total waste, It was a relatively inexpensive lesson in mineralogy and prospecting 101 as compared to what other people spend at the universities. So very quickly, my money was GONE. What do I do now? I did not know anyone in the nearest town which was about an hour and a half drive on a very bad mountain road. I had never lived in a small town and I had never been very aggressive when it came to approaching people and selling myself. In fact I had been for the most part a loner. Getting acquainted was no small chore for me. I finally met a very nice older man who did not have much money but was willing to help me if he could. He had a residence next door that was used for storage which he allowed me to open up a small area where I could roll out a sleeping bag and  look for an odd job from time to time. In the early years I lived on as little as $200 per year! Thanks to an occasional food box and commodities that were available at that time which included flour, corn meal, powered milk and some Velveeta type cheese once in a while, life was sustainable although living on bread and water was often the main meal. Let’s face it that when you are hungry bread and water is OK especially after periods of weeks with little or no food!
Because of chronic pain it was necessary to force myself to hike the sides of the canyon searching for mineralization almost daily carrying a heavy pack, pick and shovel , hammer and chisel and other implements of destruction. I soon learned that a couple hundred people over the last couple hundred years had already gone over these areas and found the easy to find deposits. Therefore I knew that I would need to work harder than most everyone else if I was to have even a slight chance of finding anything of considerable value. I had no medical care insurance and did not want to go on the government dole so I suffered as long as possible until I couldn’t’t take the suffering any longer so I then went to the county and applied for AHCCCS which is Arizona’s version of Medicaid. Continue reading